...Hello, hello ...

I have been moving on pretty well on my own for awhile now, I'd say.

Compared for the first two weeks of the term, I was really trying very hard to keep things going. It was the hardest on the first day of the term when everything that I'd starting facing from that day onwards until now started to kick into my head. When I started to accept what I have chosen. My option. And then things got a little smeared by my sudden lost of direction and the passing of my father. I'd lie if I said I'm already over it. But hey, I'm still here, trying my best to function properly. To do things that I should be doing, like moving on.

They say, life only starts when you start living it. Yup, that's freaking true, I'd say. You know why? Because the me inside knew, the way I'm living it right now, is not right. What is left is not right. But then again, as the daughter of my father, I am very independent. Well, to put it crudely, I do not like to accept help. I don't even understand myself, I just don't like to even though I need to. I hate it. I just want to be ... me.

A 'No' is not that hard to understand, isn't it? I am breaking myself up, I know, everyone can stop reminding me that, thank you very much. I'm sorry that I am that kind of person who needs to feel pain to live. I learn the hard way. I have to. :)

I have been feeling rather down lately. As I'm learning how to love myself, don't be suprised if you don't recognize me. Because I have been gaining weight! Ahhhhhhhh !

Can you be not happy when you eat chocolates? It is IMPOSSIBLE. It is my addiction. :)